i have lived life lately.
like heavy, full, and rich life.
the good, the bad, the reality.
blogging fell so far on the totem pole it was basically not apart of the equation. so i'm back to conquer the pendulum swing of balance for my life and wanted to share a brief glimpse of the last several days, weeks, months of lurking in blogland and a song that has been my mantra this last week.
i have no concept of time, each week bringing new challenges and victories. some brilliantly beautiful, some simply painful. one stretch of weeks brought a death, a marriage, and a death. all were victories yet pain sprinkled in. victory came when battles of illness were won with the sweet taste of healing when called home. and the marriage was magical. i watched my brother become a man and welcomed a new sister who is precious. watching as my husband wed these amazing people, all the while keeping eyes focused on the true bride, Christ. sin has ravished ones i love. relationships have been strained, renewed and repaired, all three with some. some not. marriages have been cried over, prayed over, everything poured out on. children have been held while bathed in tears and prayers. a beautiful perfect baby born. a marriage proposal accepted. a new baby coming in december announced. hospital stays, procedures, healing, and welcoming home. satan has lingered, but God's hand has always been present. i have experienced great pain and great triumph.
i have lived life lately.
In your ocean, I’m ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet
It’s like I know where I need to be
But I can’t figure out, yeah I can’t figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There’s only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Ohhh!Ohhh!
Ohhh Oh, something beautiful
And the water is risin’ quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can’t be sure when it will subside
So I won’t leave your side, no I can’t leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful
Ohhh!Ohhh!
Ohhh Oh, something beautiful
In a daydream, I couldn’t live like this
I wouldn’t stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, I know I will have
No, I still won’t have what I need
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees,
I’m waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful
i often ask God why the burdens surrounding me
are so heavy
for me, my family, friends. and each time i'm able to comfort others, be comforted and in each situation feel God's love i am reminded...
"For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?" Esther 4:14
